Empty Days

Friday, March 19, 2004



Some ignorant ideas ::

Of the tarot trumps I am getting to know The Emperor (IV) and Strength (VIII/XI) especially well - since I keep drawing those two. I suppose different spreads that consistently share some of the cards can be viewed "in sequence", as a sort of plot evolving into various contexts around certain key elements.

Also, I don't always draw on the same question - but then I do not have any specific questions I truly care about. In essense, I only have one single query - and my approach changes according to moods. Interestingly enough, the cards are pretty good at reflecting that - or I am pretty good at reading my moods into cards.

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Something else I've noticed - it is very hard to deal with descriptions that force other people into the spread. Just what I am saying: please stop buggering me by insisting that this King of Hell is somebody I know and should avoid or flee or somehow figure out. First of all - there are no kings in my environment, not even a boss or a partner I can blame all my resentments on. There *are* no people fucking up my life - there is only me. So who's that awful King from Hell? Ah well, time for some highly psychological symbolisms here - it's not a "who".

I think this is a very good thing to remember even when your life is full of people - because the immediate temptation is to pin everything down on that "foreign influence" and wash yourself clean of any hellishness. It's a major temptation and I wouldn't be surprised if it consistently screws up a lot of the readings.

The less literal the better.

Another way to look at it - sometimes people play a passing role in your life, it is as if they effect some things for you, but it's not because of some deep mutual connection - they're just like cards in a spread, they effect your context, without becoming individually significant as major figures or influences. Once again - it's not a "who".

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I do understand that I do not understand. So far it's just flip-flapping and getting hunches. Like I said previously: pick up a handful of pebbles and look at them long enough - they're all different, and you can read pebbles because they're all different, and the way they fall varies too. If you stay with the same bunch of pebbles long enough you will develop a whole tarot structure out of it. Yes - the whole world is reflected in a drop of water.

It might be the principle of meditation - though I wouldn't argue for it.





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