Empty Days

Thursday, June 24, 2004



Psychometer.

It would be nice if there existed a small portable device, like the diabetics use to measure the level of sugar in their unstable blood - to measure the state of various biochemical activities in the brain, in particular for lack or surplus of dopamine, serotonin and other such mood-related little bastards.

Of course, the thing would have to be accompagnied by a whole line of generally available chemical regulators - a bit like self-injections of insuline when necessary etc.

So far, diabetics are better off than psychopaths and depressives - at least they have their first-aid package, while us, the sufferers of the mind, we are being denied even such ancient and perfectly potent remedies like cocaine, extasy and other such stimulants. Instead we are supposed to regularly ingurgitate unclear drugs that have an uncertain and rather tedious effect on our little brains and other parts of the body. In fact, it rather seems that these drugs are designed to diminish our brainy capacities instead of raising them to full-potential. The depressive and the psychopath are intolerably outside the norm - one in being too low, the other in being too high.

But do current drugs at least procure peace of mind (which would seem like the very essence of ideal normality)? Or do they procure a discounted, somewhat mediocre equanimity, where balance is achieved at whatever level as long as you don't feel frustrated or over-hyped? (see dopamine-inhibitors)

I hear curious things about Celexa (citalopram) - apparently it makes you into something of a blissful imbecile, perpetually content of whatever is there, which is perhaps very near the taoist principle of "saying yes to the global flux of reality". According to personal accounts, a curious effect of the drug is that ongoing negative thinking does not affect mood - which is strange, because you would think: if you're in such a good mood, negative thinking would disappear, right? Wrong. And that's how you know you're a blissful imbecile. Or maybe that's what Nietzsche experienced of his own biochemistry - being such a cheerful masochist as he was...

Anxieties are of course a source of torture, and essentially sedative drugs such as Xanax (alprazolam), Paxil (paroxetine) etc are perhaps the best answer to uncontrollable tremors, sleeplessness and jerky behavior due to stress, drug-addiction, or dead-end situations. But make no mistake: it won't take away your problem, which is where anxiety originates from in the first place. My main concern about these drugs is that they act as a sort of smoke-screen - and people purposefully over-dosing on Xanax are not that rare in the end.

In short, we are quite far as yet from the clear state of the diabetic and other suchlike sufferers. The brain is a mess, not to mention the mind. I wonder how they manage depression etc in the Middle-East or Africa... I guess there the drive to outstandingly correct normality is not as high - and violence or holiness are not as much looked down upon.

Depression in the Middle-East - an interesting subject...





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