Empty Days

Friday, July 09, 2004



Obsessive psychology.

An unintended and yet very positive result of my latest spree of vandalism (heh, just joking - that was the one and the only) has been that the gook nemesis has completely disappeared from sight. I don't know what's going on but he's just never there anymore, all his cars and relatives gone and only returning very late at night.

Which means that I can finally have some peace - nobody's mawing the lawn every other day for hours and hours, nobody's washing a whole parking-lot of cars all day long, birds are chirping and the sky is blue, this is a great relief.

The way I explain this is that the man is indeed somewhat deranged and his family know it. So, due to his latest trauma they must have arranged for him to spend the day at friends or in the country, away from the scene of his obsessions (I and my bikes have been his obsession for years - I could testify to that in court). It is possible that his psychosis has now reached homicidal proportions so that his family are afraid he might try to kill me or do something violent like that. Either way, I believe his absence is directly related to my actions on the night of monday to tuesday. If not - this is quite a coincidence.

My assumptions are not entirely wanton - after all I know how obsessive mind functions, I have a detailed example in my own father. This is why I can't really hate this guy as much as I might if I knew he had no weakness. But I know his weakness - I know he's essentially mad and in what precise way. I also know that the best cure for him would be to move somewhere else altogether. His obsession with my person has developed way before I became aware of it. Nothing can stop it - whether I respond to it or not is not really relevant. The constant stress of seeing me around puts this guys under tremendous pressure. I wonder whether his family are truly aware how bad this is for him. In such cases, the family usually tries to downplay the symptoms and hope that the obsession would disappear of its own. But it never does. If lingers on and progresses and secretly wishes for a bursting through - a climax of violence and deliverance.

Perhaps unwittingly I have just provided such a climax. Unless the family persists in ignoring his symptoms, they should really think of moving him away for good - to a new, pure place devoid of old hatred. This is what "cured" my father - after 10 years of obsessions in their old flat, my parents finally moved after push came to shove entirely provoked by my father's obsessions. We had to send him away for a few months at the height of hostilities. In the meantime my mother found a new flat. Just the fact of relocating to a new place, a new environment removed all the stress - my dad is now a perfectly peaceful man. That's exactly what the gook needs too - but his family is probably unaware of these "trifles" and reluctant to force such a drastic solution. They likely think there aren't enough rational reasons to go through all the difficulties of moving etc. They don't understand how an irrational obsession functions. Rational "weighty" reasons are not important - the gook can't control himself, they should get to grips with that fact and stop pretending he's ok. He's not. But madness is a shame for the family - madness is never acknowledged until it bursts into the open and provokes pain and destruction.

We'll see. I am a very good psychologist - due to my extensive experience with deviant human behavior, my own in particular. Haha.





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