Empty Days

Friday, August 13, 2004



Sometimes I catch a glimpse of news and it looks bizarre.

Apparently americans are still fighting Al-Sadr in Najaf all these months later. Meantime westerners keep getting kidnapped and beheaded - not soldiers but various contractors and journalists. The obvious thing is that there are so much more Al-Qaeda types in Iraq now than there ever were before. It's their hands-on holy-war area at the moment. And nobody can do a thing about it since the civil order in Iraq just doesn't seem to exist at all. What's more, it doesn't seem that there will be such an order any time soon. Nobody cares, of course. I certainly do not since I can't do a thing about it. It is more than likely that Bush will be re-elected - yet another thing I can't do anything about. I wonder what's the point of bothering with politics under such conditions.

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Another relatively interesting news the other day: the handsome married-with-children NJ governor publically admits (under legal pressure of course) to having had an affair with a man. Oh my god. What is interesting about this is that he immediately declares himself "a gay american" whereas in fact he might just be bisexual. I suppose, current politics are such that it might look too frivolous to declare onself so indiscriminate in sexual affairs, while it sounds somehow politically correct and "tragic" to "come out of the closet" and all that crap.

Ever since the gay movement became a militant political force a certain stereotyped vocabulary has been forged which is extremely limiting to reality - as all political vocabulary usually is. I am strongly suspicious of the idea that people are supposed to be either entirely homosexual or entirely straight. There are vast gray areas in between that are not accounted for and are still considered extremely impolite to mention. As a result of gay militancy, people have been "educated" to think of sexuality in black-n-white terms: either gay or straight, choose your camp. If you don't go ahead and choose your camp, you're basically a pervert and a traitor to whatever accepted ideology. Funny, hein?

I don't believe this married governor is a homosexual - the fact of loving men from time to time does not automatically signify you should leave your spouse and run for the next gay-bar to find innumerable mates. Imagine what it is like for a bisexual: what exactly determines which person of which sex you will choose to spend your life with? Perhaps not simply sexual attraction but mostly social and personal considerations. A straight man who marries may want to cheat on his wife with other women - it's a choice to do it or not, and it certainly makes no difference that you might cheat with men instead. If your wife can tolerate sexual vagrancy in principle, from the standpoint of being a couple it doesn't matter which way you go - your homosexual needs are just sexual needs from that perspective and are no more or less excusable.

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Another distorted effect of all this politically sexualized rhetoric is that whenever you hear of two men becoming close friends there is always this silly question popping up somewhere in the mind: do they sleep together? This is absurd - can't two people be friends anymore and do things together for no other reason than the pleasure of each other's company? Apparently not. Luckily, despite all this endless crap, friendships still exist and people disregard such bullshit - but you have to make a special little effort to forget these notions.

But I think close friendships are rare these days for many other reasons. Sexuality is a way of using another person, just as a lot of our over-all relation to the world has to be a way of getting something useful from it. Friendship is too much of a disinterested affair to survive amidst such thinking.

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In Queens, NY there was so much rain that cars were washed off in a torrent of flood. Two people tried to escape their car in waist-high waters and were electrocuted by a downed power-line - onlookers could not help for obvious reasons.

Sometimes you just have to stand there and watch people suffer.





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