Empty Days

Thursday, October 21, 2004



Crap onto gold.

I have a curious predilection for unpleasant discussions. That is: the kind of opinions that express the worst in all of us. These may be expressed stupidly or intelligently, either way it doesn't change their unpleasant nature. Perhaps I simply have a predilection for honesty.

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In the very midst of triumphant paradise a cesspool is growing - full of things unsaid yet lived and felt. The inevitable, fatal error of all temporal paradises is the famous putting of a lead on the cesspool of all things human. In a society bent on goodness and non-violence, violence and badness become desirable - the steam-engine of civilization propelled by strange boilings.

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In the common parlance this sort of talk is designated as provokative. I wonder - what does it "provoke"? Oh yes of course - the worst in all of us. It is believed that unless badness is provoked out of its slumber, it doesn't arise. It is also believed that the less is said about the Devil, the less He exists. Etc etc. My observations show a different picture: badness does not slumber, it lives and manifests no matter how inarticulately. As well, the Devil is not a solipsistic creation. Of course the lead that is put on etc is the word "badness" itself. We're talking a system of values as applied to "what is". However - what is goes well beyond any sort of morality: beyond and under and in all the cracks and holes.

Practical application: I live in a world where racism and related discrimination are forbidden both by common law and politeness (or social morals), yet I observe it every day both in myself and in all the disparate others around me. Should I simply disregard what is and say no more? Hardly.

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Therefore discussing "what is" can only be provokative - if it is not, this is a clear sign that the discussion revolves not about what is but rather about "what should be". Which is the morally correct talk par excellence. The brilliant invention of political correctness transformed our all-too-human universe into a universe of moral discourse. An ideal reality that does not exist - if only in the talking minds at large.

Meantime the cesspool is growing - unacknowledge, forbidden, auto-censured, denied, unsaid, untought, unseen and unseemly. Rampant. Uninvited. Hopelessly real.

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This is not a new historical phenomenon - it is a very old and boring and perfectly familiar phenomenon. In fact it is so repetitive in history that we all know by heart how it will go from here: first the cesspool will grow out of hand, then it will emit poisonous gases and contaminate all air in the hood, and then some fool will spark a match somewhere nearby and the whole thing gonna blow...

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The practical value of provokative, unpleasant discourse does not really consist in the attribute of "honesty" - it consists in taking the lead off the cesspool and letting some of the steam out. It's a natural urge - and it is *not* rational.

What I want to hear: everything that I rather not think about.





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